my journey with children

Erica loves to be bare feet and recently we watched a documentary about this, about grounding.   I have never thought how important it is to have at least half an hour a day bare feet.  It is impossible to do this in winter but as spring is here, we can enjoy and fill up ourselves with the earth energy. Do you like to walk bare feet? p.s. this is the documentary: https://www.groundology.co.uk/videos?show=the-earthing-movie

The more I tell her to me more quiet, the louder she is. It is truly terrible sometimes, like they say, terrible 3. And not even 3 yet.  Sometimes my explanations are not enough, are not convincing her. Either her way or the highway.  I feel this starts to happen now, after Ava's birth quiet a lot No reaction, they say...so they will not do it again Good luck with that! Quarantine for me was full of challenges!  How was it for you with children?

I didn't suffer from Corona as much as I suffered from the quarantine with two children for 14 days. We had very mild symptoms and we were lucky.  Erica really wants to play with Ava....but no chance for now.  She needs to be explained and to be told that she needs to wait a few more months. However she calls Ava all the sweet names possible in Romanian and in German and in the same time she finds it extremely funny to scare her. Erica comes on the tip of her feet to Ava, and then she starts to scream. I go crazy... Explanations, theories why not to do this. In the end what it worked out is to scare her in the same manner and to see why is not nice to do this to her smaller sister. 

It's getting closer to go home. I am happy!!! Erica, my daughter, couldn't come to see us, only my partner for one hour per day (pandemic rules).  We staid 3 days here in order to have this examination 2 for the newborn babies. This includes also a hearing screening, which was done twice today, while Ava was sleeping.  I kept reading during pregnancy different articles about how to handle with your first child when the second one is born. I had this strong wish not to fail in introducing Ava to Erica, and to start the first weeks with the right foot, to make it as easy as possible for Erica. Today, when I got so close from this moment, Erica meeting her sister and starting a different phase in our family, I started to read again, to search for ideas, experiences of other parents. It felt too much at one point. I got so overwhelmed, my space got narrow. I got so tired, streesed and sad... It feels very hard what will come next. So I close all 15 tabs with articles a...

This pregnancy felt 10 times harder than first.   I remember I didn't feel great with my first child, Erica, as well but  I was able to handle most of the discomforts (nausea, headaches, pains) through rest. Just reading on my sofa, taking a nap from time to time during the day, or slowing everything down. Impossible all of these with Erica around now. She started also not to take naps in the afternoon, therefore no break. It's not only this, Erica's energy but the more belly grew, the more clingy she started to be. It feels she gets more and more scared, even though I try to reassure, to present everything with enthusiasm and with love how it will be with the baby inside the house. Most recently she started to say I am only and only hers, those two hands are hers, my head is hers, all of my body is hers. Plus she is a baby again, she wants to be hold in arms like a baby; a great regress she has, that sometimes blocks me.  I had some contractions and I wanted to lie ...

 The chance to play as much as I want, without feeling that I lose my time with important things as an adult, to make so many silly things with Erica is among the reasons that I truly enjoy in being a mother. I  could have done those of course without having my child around but it's not as fun as when you share the laughter and the complicity with her.  The silliest I get the more she likes it. These days we saw in a book with kindergarten and some children have birds noses and we made as well, a few of them. Actually she wants them now almost every day.  In Corona times, I feel that if you are not creative and silly  yourself but also your child...it's impossible to make it through. Whenever Erica gets bored, she starts to pretend that she bakes a cake. I speak about sillyness and happiness, which I admit I sometimes force myself to bring them outside. Erica has a sort of a skin irritation while  I am stressed with the imminent labor. I just wish she gets ...

Her stubbornness, when my energy gets so low in the afternoon and evening, is something I have to deal almost every day. It pushes my patience limits; actually I need to overcome them with every occasion. I try to keep in mind what are the most important things  like food, time of sleep, being kind with others and us. But then are others things that she wants to be done in her way or only on her own, with no ones help. I find it hard to clean the chaos in the last part of the pregnancy. We clean sometimes together, but sometimes it's a definitive NO. But we adults make the same, sometimes we are able to be flexible and make compromises, other times it's "either my way or the highway": ).  I feel one girl inside needs protection, to be careful how I move, not to make too much effort but on the other hand Erica needs also attention, comfort and to be hold in my arms (when actually there are not so many comfortable hugging ways with a huge belly). This evening she strugg...

I have been trying all along to create a bond between my girls. Erica speaks with "bebe" everyday. She kisses the belly, hugs, gives food to the belly and so on. Tells everybody her mother has a big belly with bebe inside. It would be wonderful if they love each other as much as I love my sisters and brother. It's such a unique love and precious; I don't imagine my life without them. With whom could I make my most silliest jokes and have fights that are very fast forgiven by everyone, other then them?  I wonder how it will be Erica when "bebe" is finally outside the belly :)! How would you create this bond even stronger, when the baby is born?